You see me now, but I had to R.E.A.P. to get here! I had to embark on a personal journey of self-discovery and healing.
What do I mean by R.E.A.P.? Well, I’m glad you are paying attention and curious. I know it is hard to believe, but I must admit that I didn’t wake up like this – I haven’t always been this confident and outspoken! It definitely was a process. I had to:
REVEAL the bondage that had me captive.
EMPOWER myself to end my pity party.
ACTIVATE my mind to think differently and accept that this can be changed.
POWER my life.
My journey from bondage to power was long and uncomfortable. I would continually refuse the direction He showed me. I don’t know if you have ever been there, but this girl is definitely stubborn and even God couldn’t move me (or so I thought). I would do things that I knew didn’t have His stamp of approval, e.g. club, drink, and date everyone except “the Boaz-material”.
I wanted to be in control. Not because I disliked obeying God. I wanted to be in control because I was afraid of what would happen if I relinquished control. My mindset: “I’ll drive my own car because if you drive, then I’m unsure of what will happen next – that terrifies me!”.
I suppressed my past hurts because addressing them and talking about them made me feel like “they” still affected me and I refused to let them have power over me. Little did I know, “they” and those experiences had the greatest power and control over every expect of my life (a concept that many people don’t even realize or refuse to admit).
It was extremely hard to accept the reality that I wasn’t in control and that I was in fact spinning out of control the more that I tried to hold on tighter and tighter!!! I rejected this notion for years!
When I finally stopped and accepted the reality of my life and my past, I realized that in order to win, I had to relinquish control to the one person who can drive my car better than I – God.
I am still on my journey of self-discovery and healing. My path consists of a spiritual journey, mental journey, fitness journey, loving-self journey, and others. My overall life’s mission is to show others that it can be done (hence the birth of Crowned P.O.W.E.R.)!!!
I welcome you to join me as I travel this road. Join me on a mission to help myself and others go from bondage to power and R.E.A.P. our blessings by discerning and fulfilling our purpose!